Sorrow

I am so full of sorrow, that it makes everyday life so difficult.  I have so many questions after the death of my mom.  I know what we are taught about eternal families, but I thought knowing that would give me more comfort.  Some days I feel like I am losing my mind.  I wish that I could see what my mom is doing or thinking or feeling.  I wish for so many things.
 For now I am stopping my blog.  I just can't keep up with it and everything with my family.  It takes all my energy to focus on things that are essential.  After the new year, maybe I will return with a much lighter heart.